small words/small thoughts

lately I've been impressed with the power of words. how easily they can hurt. oh how easily they can be said. how hard it is to forget them or not take them personally. written words can hurt even more because they don't have the sounds that animate them. maybe they are even more dangerous, because the reader can add her own animation regardless of what was intended by the writer. that, my friend, is dangerous too. CAPTIALS ARE DANGEROUS, bold is too loud, THIS IS A DECLARATION OF WAR, this is a conspiring whisper, and none of these words are more than pixels on a screen...pulses of light like the ones God called into existence in the beginning.

with these words i love, i paint, i push and cajole. with these words, these very quiet words, i pray, i hate

with these words i change, i relate, i scream - notice me.

i write these words to remind me that they are more powerful than i intend. i shouldn't be trusted with words because they are too powerful...not yet. i need to practice more with actions until they look more like the words that i want to say and that i want to be.